The RubberNaut

RubberNaut is a lyrical, intimate journey into the heart of Deep Rubber Fetish Spirituality*, where desire, aging, and self-acceptance intertwine against the mist-laden forests of the Pacific Northwest. Through the journal entries of Thalia Koster—a resilient yet vulnerable, post-menopausal woman in her sixties—this epistolary novel explores the quiet courage of embracing one’s truth in a world quick to judge.

It asks, “what can one do when the 'fires in the groin' have diminished with age, but the fetish remains”?

At the Hahnestery, an isolated sanctuary, Thalia confronts the twin weights of time and societal rejection. Her body may no longer burn with the sexual passion of youth, but her spirit finds new fire in Gomu Yoku—her ritual of “rubber bathing.” Inspired by Shinrin Yoku, a Japanese meditative practice involving deep immersion in the sensuality of being in a forest (translated as “forest bathing”), Thalia adapts this concept to her rubber fetish, transforming latex from mere material to sacred skin, a path to transcendence. The Hahn family, each carrying their own burdens of aging, serve as mirrors and anchors as Thalia navigates The Acedia—the soul’s weariness—and the fear of abandonment.

The novel’s prose is as evocative as the scent of rain on rubber, blending sensual realism with psychological depth. Thalia’s journey is one of reclaiming agency, not through defiance, but through the quiet revelation that her fetish is not shame, but a path to ataraxia (inner peace). In the end, RubberNaut is a testament to the beauty of unconventional spirituality, the resilience of the aging body, and the peace found in being seen as one truly is.

*"Deep Rubber Fetish Spirituality" is a non-theistic practice using rubber fetish as a vehicle for empowerment, and transcendence through immersive ritualistic, often meditative engagement with the material. This parable addresses the post-andro/menopausal dynamics.